Day 11: The Quitter Character

In the past when things got real tough to handle, I don't mind telling you folks that I was not beneath  walking away and quitting. Throw in the towel. Hang up the gloves,  "If I can't beat it, QUIT!" 

I've walked out of jobs, relationships, marriages, bands , you name it. If I wasn't calling all the shots, or get what I wanted,  I used to become quite agitated.I should have done better , but I didn't know how to face myself in those situations.Since I don't enjoy sustained conflict, walking away seemed like a proper choice.

But I've come to realize over the years, that this might not be the best way to  handle one's affairs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit when things get tough to deal with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit when relationships got tough to deal with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit when jobs got too crazy to deal with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit just before things could have gotten better for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit instead of facing myself in what ever situation  that needed direction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit; behind which existed a fear of loss or losing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit and not realize that it was my Quitting Character that retreated and quit over a problem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit before I achieved anything that was worthwhile.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to quit and go into self-judgment over it.

I commit myself to be watchful and notice when the Quitter Character is set to move into my consciousness and not "give in" and "admit defeat" when the Quitter, as a defense mechanism, appears.

I commit myself to transcend the Quitter where I do not allow myself to give on a point of defeat but instead walk through whatever comes up and deal with it one step at a time.