I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist writing self-forgiveness about being tired of being sick.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing writing about being sick because it sounds like whining and I hate whining to others about shit I'm going through.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sometimes feel that there's no way out for me since my illness has no "cure."
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to support my body properly. I've felt like this for years and I just deal, ignore and suppress - I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dealing, ignoring and suppressing myself in relation to being sick.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that it's all downhill from here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist sharing this because I don't want anyone to know.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for timelooping this things for years and years.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not trusting doctors.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not doing this self-forgiveness correctly thus making things worse for myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I'm not worthy of Life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking better care of my body.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that my illness has manifest to assist and support me in seeing my self-dishonest nature so I can begin correcting myself.
I commit myself to further develop my self-honesty, self-forgiveness and self-trust to walk through the consequence of my own making.
I commit myself to hold the realization that it's not about the illness but who I am within the illness, and that I have no choice but to move through the consequence to the other side through developing and maintaining the tools I've been given to assist me.
I realize that I have been incredibly self-dishonest and that is why I am in consequence, so I commit myself to continue to develop my self-honesty and breath more and more even though I don't know where this will all take me.
Thanks for sharing Darryl, I say no need to know where 'it will take you' - all we realize is we are here and no matter what we're not 'going anywhere else' but here
ReplyDeletecool share! I've read many of your blogs over the last few years and you're a great writer so I have no doubts about your ability in effectively writing out self forgiveness and self corrective statements to erradicate the illness you are experiencing. Get'r done!
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